Happy M’s Day

I was at TJ Maxx recently and saw this beautiful M. It had rhinestones that were different shades of pink and I thought my youngest niece would love it!

Since I have two nieces, I decided to search for another one like it for my older niece, but after doing a search at the jewelry aisle, all I found were more Ms.

So I asked the lady who worked at the jewelry desk if she knew of another shipment with more letters - different ones - so I could get my oldest niece one too.

She searched also and said “It’s likely that there are so many Ms because Mother’s Day is coming up. That’s why there are so many.”

I hadn’t made the connection until that moment.

I have become so oblivious to Mother’s Day that it’s almost as if it doesn’t exist. Do I see the advertisements? Yes - but I’ve trained myself to be a bit detached from it all. I glaze over them, take the hit, and move on with my day.

As someone who is grieving, I think about my mother everyday. And often, multiple times a day. Everyday is Mother’s Day for me but in the way it was intended.

Mother’s Day was originally created for us - for those of us who are grieving. It’s since been commercialized to the founders dismay and also for the good, mothers deserve to be celebrated.

It’s just a really difficult time for those of us who don’t have our mothers so we have to find ways to withstand the pomp and circumstance.

I do thank God that my father’s birthday is around (and sometimes on) Mother’s Day because it provides a bit of a distraction but it’s still a big reminder of her - of what I lost. What the world lost.

Believe it or not this will be my 4th Mother’s Day without my mother’s physical presence on earth. I’ll figure out something to do with the day and if people tell me Happy Mother’s Day as they usually do, I’ll say thank you and take a moment to honor my mother.

Sometimes people say, “Happy Mother’s Day, oh are you a mother? No? Tell your mom Happy Mother’s Day”, so I do.

After that, I’ll count the hours until the next day arrives, praying that it does and knowing that God will be there with open arms.

Happy Ms Day